I miss you...a lot. Maybe more than you can imagine. Where are you now? :( I feel like we're million miles away, and never able to meet again. It's like there are no days where we can get through without mentioning your name at least once or twice. I'm sorry things took such a drift and ended up the way it is now. It's so hard to forget the people you've loved and consider family for so long, and ended so fast. Everytime we tell ourselve's it's the end, or that we'll stop trying now, we don't follow through cause even though it hurts to do that, it hurts even more not talking. I just wish it could be back to normal...the way it used to be. The laughs, the jokes, the secrets, the chillages, the love. The way we were always comfortable with. And the times where we were priorities and not options. Cause honestly, for you guys, it was always first priorities, we'd never consider you guys as options. I hate the missing and envying part, but still fake a smile as if this was all okay and normal. We'd walk a thousand miles, just to see your face once a week, but it would never be reciprocal. This can last for temporary or eternity. Either way, I just really wanted you guys to know the love will always remain the same from us to you, even if it meant it won't be reciprocal. Afterall, all the anger & jealousy is from caring too much, and feeling replaced as if there will never be us again. It's like we were needed for the wrong reasons and feeling like some leftovers that just don't want to be touched again. I'm sorry for being a bother and spazzing over something stupid. But just wanting you to know something, and then having it end up the wrong way & making things worse was not any of our intentions. We went through our phases ~ meeting, liking, loving, hating & now missing. What hurts the most was being so close, and then ending so fast. Now ~ all we can do is reminise through those old photos and wished we were back to those days, where we wished the days just wouldn't end. It wasn't about where, as long as there was us. Sometimes when you really love someone, you have to let them go. As long as you're happy, I guess it's fine if we suffer the pain. Afterall, you're not the one who'll be dealing with it. Cause who know's, when the next time will be. That's just how it goes.. people change and we tried fixing it, but made it worse? It's alright, we'll be missing long times. :( but more importantly, you'll always be loved no matter what, no matter how long the silence continues. ♥.